Milleeyyy.

worst week of my life, i want to book a one way ticket to cambodia.

as soon as i think everything is going perfect, everything fucks up and my world fucking falls apart! looks like i have to start building all over again! It feels like im on of those people who attaches themselves to quickly … or maybe im just easily played i havent decided yet.

But i am over caring about people, i remember when i was like 14 and i had my whole life set out… nothing has gone to plan at all not even close! i want to have kids by 19… im already 19, i have no kids? married by 22…. once again im 19, and every close to serious realtionship i have had fucked up… so it looks like im gonna be a lonely old sour bitch,  i wanted to be a nurse… not even doing that course any more..

my life is just one fucking big fuck up, nothing at all is going to plan… i honestly want to dig a hole in the ground and go live in it… i hate perth i hate the people here i hate everything about it.

i want a realtionship, that actually means something to the other person not just me… i want someone to plan a future with… im over being fucked around..

why doesnt everyone just leave me with out saying good-bye… seems like the thing to do these days.

I’m so over caring about you, I’m so over you being a absolute rude prick and getting away with it. I’m so over you and your stupid lying fucking face.

Day 6 - Two things you want.

1. To end poverty, not that i could do it alone….. but to help out some way. Seeing poverty first hand makes your relise how good we have it…. the amount of money we spend on useless things could go towards a better future for people that have no hopes at all.

2. i want a house, i guess its the total opposite of what i said before…. but i guess oening my own house isnt “usless” though…its a need thing, and i work hard to save money.. and i have been working for years, so in 2012 i want to start building my own house!